Everyday I learn something new about myself. Today I've learned I worry too much about who I'm supposed to be.
There's a version of me that is supposed to be in law school right now still in New York, in a one bedroom apartment with a puppy named Poppy. Another version includes me with 2 years of consistent experience in communications, probably married and thinking of having my first child. But this version is nothing like the others. With it being graduation season, I wonder if I made too many wrong turns. People who are younger than me are done with school before me.
I'm still so close to that part being done.
Don't get me wrong, I love the person I've become despite plans being delayed. This time of year is a little hard for me is all.
Speaking of hard, can we talk about my body issues?
I've filled out way more than I thought I would. Yeah my body is awesome. But my midsection though?! Ugh it needs so much work. I know the only way it'll change is if I start working out consistently again. Then I look at these other girls without oblique issues. The slim thick chicks. Part of me wants to look like them. I don't know what they do to keep their bodies like that so I can't really be upset with them. I'm upset that I care. I'm upset that I can't try on my clothes without over-analyzing my stomach. But I'll get through it.
My job is starting to heat up. By heat up, I mean annoy me. Simple questions can be answered quickly if people read all emails. Hovering isn't necessary. And I swear lists can really help develop and compile your tasks. I wish I could just tell people that. Instead, I take what they give until I feel comfortable setting those boundaries.
Guys as usual I have no idea what's going to happen next. But when I do, I'll write to you all about it.